since we were 5 years old.. we;ve been best friends..we grew up together our parents were friends..i could tell u nething. so when u moved away when we were in the 6th grade i cried so bad..i missed u. then reunited in grade 9 things went right back to the way that they were.i was so happy to have u bak. then it happened. a party for our friend..tthere was too much alcohol and u thought that u would try to take our friendship just one step further. you did this without even asking me. u told me that you would never hurt me, u looked me right in the eyes and told me that you would protect me from nething or neone that could hurt me. you tried to rape me. my best friend..it hurts so bad..u took away my trust..i dont kno who to trust..no one is here..i feel so alone. my world is upside down. i start to cut myself. i feel worthless. i shut everyone and everything out. my family doesnt notice until i am standing in front of them bleeding and cryin. it took a year. a whole year of my life. the coucelling, the pills, the tears, the thoughts, the fear. That has been the past year of my life..when i finally think that its all over. i cant trust again..it all repeats. welcome to my life

to every gurl out there that has been thru this..kno that it'l be alright tell someone..get help becuz holding it in..only makes it worse trust me i kno

since we were 5 years old.. we;ve been best friends..we grew up together our parents were friends..i could tell u nething. so when u moved away when we were in the 6th grade i cried so bad..i missed u. then reunited in grade 9 things went right back to the way that they were.i was so happy to have u bak. then it happened. a party for our friend..tthere was too much alcohol and u thought that u would try to take our friendship just one step further. you did this without even asking me. u told me that you would never hurt me, u looked me right in the eyes and told me that you would protect me from nething or neone that could hurt me. you tried to rape me. my best friend..it hurts so bad..u took away my trust..i dont kno who to trust..no one is here..i feel so alone. my world is upside down. i start to cut myself. i feel worthless. i shut everyone and everything out. my family doesnt notice until i am standing in front of them bleeding and cryin. it took a year. a whole year of my life. the coucelling, the pills, the tears, the thoughts, the fear. That has been the past year of my life..when i finally think that its all over. i cant trust again..it all repeats. welcome to my life

to every gurl out there that has been thru this..kno that it'l be alright tell someone..get help becuz holding it in..only makes it worse trust me i kno

Fallen Angel, who eva u r, u have helped me so much with your words. I neva thought words cld change how i feel but u have made me see, you have made me see the light at the end of the tunel. ok my life is shit at the moment, but your right ond day it will get better, and there is help out there. I was too scared to tell my best friend about my cutting but i told her and shes ben very supportive. she even told me that shes goin thru a rough patch in her life right now, so were there for each other. i just want to thank you. you have made me realise that suicide isnt the answer and you have made me and my best friend alot closer. thank you so much Fallen Angel

I want to paint a picture,
A picture with a twist.
A want to paint a picture,
A picture on my wrist.

When I paint my picture,
A fountain will appear.
And if I paint it deep enough,
My pain will disappear.

To sleep for eternity would b a gift would it not? It would b more precious than any material on our physical earth. To live without the strife and conflict of everyday life. To give up the pains of anger, sadness, envy, confusion and even love because love can hurt the most out of all. To let go of the complications of thought and drift to the golden gates of heaven... but maybe not, maybe our soul, our life energy goes somewhere else. Maybe we drift, without care, among the world we just physically left and enrich it with the little power still left to us. Where we go when we die is a mytery some say they have solved and i respect that but others may think as i do... Others may think that we do not simply go to heaven or hell. Whatever your beliefs may be, Would it not b bliss to leave this chaotic and demonic world? For some, it may b so but think of those who would miss you, think of those who care because whether you want to believe it or not, there is always someone who cares... Also, think of the things left for you to explore on our earth. Money is not an obstacle if you wish to find meaning in the world. Each person has a right to live and each person is valuable... you are valuable Life is full of many good things. Pain is what reminds us of just how wonderfull some things are. I care... you are a precious soul.

A True Friend
A true friend is someone that will stick by you
Through all the laughter
And through all the tears
Someone you can rely on
Open up to
Someone on which you can tell
Your most deep and darkest secrets
A true friend is someone you can go to
For advise
Or help with other things
A true friends door will always be open
Whether wat u need to tell them
Is good or bad
A true friend will just always be there
Through happiness
And sadness
No matter what the issue is
This person will always be
Your knight in shinning armour
Your rainbow after a storm
If you have a friend like this
Its good to keep them close
Lock up your friendship
And throw away the key
So nothing and no1 can take it from you
Coz there is nothing worse then losing a true friendJ

he is my hero

my dad is my hero,




he is with me all the time,




all though i cannot speak to him,




i can hear him in my mind.




i wish i could see him




for one more day,




but heaven is just too far away.





i love my dad,





and he loves me




i know he's there




i can see

why do i love you????????????

Why do i love you?

I try to find the reasons of why i feel this way,
I try to find the words that would be right to say,
I think of all the good times,the times in which you shared,
You shared with me your heart,but back then you really cared,
You cared about my feelings you cared if i was sad,
You always made me happy,things never seemed that bad,
You'd take away the heartache you'd take away the pain,
But now all you seem to do is make feel insane,
You tell me im emotional and you wonder why,
Did you ever think that it was you that made me cry?
When you told me i was stupid,when you made me feel so small,
It really makes me wonder if you loved me at all,
And now all can do is try to make myslef feel strong,
I try my very hardest,,but then i hear that song.
I listen to the words that you once sang to me,
And i start to know why we were meant to be,
I realised i was happy when i used to hear you say,
When you'd tell that you loved me every single day.
When you'd called me sweetheart and when you kissed my cheek,
And ill never forget being happy just to hear you speak,
But now im scared you've changed that you are not that lad,
The boy that made me happy now wants me to be sad,
But with this mix of feelings why do i want you here,
And why the hell i love you is'nt very clear,
So can someone tell me what the best thing is to do,
And tell me why it is that i cant stop loving you....